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Hi, everyone! I tried to make this as short as possible but I did have quite a bit to say... I will start off with a background before getting into the issues; around June of this year, I made my Facebook page public because I wanted more friends and to socialize with more people. I received several friend requests and that includes one from him, my crush, who I will just call 'L.' After I accepted L's friend request, we spoke about once a week until September when a cousin of mine passed. After that, we were there for each other and became considerably closer. At the same time, though, we started flirting and he began sweet talking me. There were roadblocks in his life (and there still is, for the most part) but I prayed for him and every since, things seemed to be a tiny bit better for him. Therefore, he has been more busy, which is okay with me-I respect it. Now, here is where the issues begin... last weekend, I saw on my timeline that he shared something that a pretty woman posted. That's not a big deal, either, but I did feel offended because even though I haven't posted in a while, he never liked anything of mine. Add on the fact that he has been busy, I can be a little paranoid, and he can like and share that woman's post but not talk to me for like, 4 or 5 days straight, and I got offended...and petty; I removed him as a friend, then blocked him on Facebook so I could effectively get over him. And no, I didn't talk to him first because I felt I would look some kind of way. (He also kept liking something of hers, at least once a day for a week). My excuse is that I have been in bad and abusive relationships and after all his sweet nothings, I figured he was doing like the others and kicking me to the curb, so removing him was a sort of protection mechanism. Anyways, I thought about it recently, and maybe that lady was just a good friend or family member of his, not a love interest. A day or two later, I get a text message from him inquiring why I blocked him and he just generally wanted an explanation. I told him the truth, that I felt paranoid and I also saw another post of his, saying that he wanted to be single even though he gets lonely sometimes. He confirmed that, telling me that he still loves me but does not belong to anyone. I got lost in the midst of all the other messages we were sending, so I did not say it back, even though I obviously love him too much. As for the rest of this past week, we have been talking, but no longer flirting. So in my opinion, it is too late for general advice so I just want to know what others think and is anybody going through a situation very similar to this? But I do have a couple of questions: Do I need a therapist or am I just brutally awkward at dating/dating situations? Thanks in advance!
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