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A guy whom I was seeing for the last few months and I were going to have a fun evening of cooking together last Saturday. We had to wait for my car to be fixed and he said earlier on in the day how excited he was to see me.
i was really excited to because he’s refused to label us - but admitted to having deeper feelings for me as well. I thought we could start to patch things up we were constantly bickering over his sexual appetite that makes me feel like that’s all I’m around for.
But he always asks how my day was, let’s me vent my worries and frustrations.
asks about my animals.
Even bought me an unexpected and expensive birthday present from my university.
tried to pay for my birthday dinner but because he already spent a lot I refused and forced my half of the bill on the server lol.
I love and adore him, but the sexual nature of his texts and when I’m in person makes me feel shitty.
expecially since things are Unlabled.
i went through 8 months with a guy who lived very far away who basically used me as a fwb because although he made his intentions clear, he treated me like a real girlfriend.
i even met and was close to his entire family.
but just before I graduated from school he told me he had met somebody online playing a video game a week ago and now they were officially dating.
i have no idea if they actually met up in person. But it broke me.
he claimed it was the distance between us, I offered to move. He seemed disinterested.
i spent hundreds to see him per trip - bc ferries lol.
and hours of traveling. Completely dotted on him.
so I understandably am very guarded now.
Also because I feel I am always the inbetween girl.
never the girl.
the guy I am talking about could be super disrespectful. But changed his ways when he knew how bad he treated me and how it hurt me.
but before we met up he made a sex joke. I told him I was disinterested in sex at that time because I don’t want to be his fwb.
i said maybe I should even stay home.
he talked about other stuff.
i said he really needed to figure his shit out before I came over and he said “bitch, you have to ask if you want to come over, and you don’t tell me shit”
i immediatly saw red red and said fuck buddy it was tha, and than blocked him.
after many hours I realized knowing his stupidness it may have been one of his awful jokes he makes in person that are not at all serious so I unblocked his cell phone so I wouldn’t have to see if he ignored me. Stupid right.
and apologized and said I realize now he may have been joking but it hurt me, and I know I am totally broken from the last semi non relationship I had and have many issues, and said that I loved him.
i never heard back.
and I’ve been crying ever since.
partly because I really miss him, and partly because regarldsss if it was a joke or not. That was completely uncalled for, rude and super aggressive.
joke or not that made me feel like a disposable hooker.
hes a ex addict and now a sex addict and never had a serious relationship.
He’s immature but not a bad guy just a unintentional jerk. Though sometimes I can see it being intentional.
but I just need someone else’s opinion.
he does try to please me.
but that really hurt me
i was really excited to because he’s refused to label us - but admitted to having deeper feelings for me as well. I thought we could start to patch things up we were constantly bickering over his sexual appetite that makes me feel like that’s all I’m around for.
But he always asks how my day was, let’s me vent my worries and frustrations.
asks about my animals.
Even bought me an unexpected and expensive birthday present from my university.
tried to pay for my birthday dinner but because he already spent a lot I refused and forced my half of the bill on the server lol.
I love and adore him, but the sexual nature of his texts and when I’m in person makes me feel shitty.
expecially since things are Unlabled.
i went through 8 months with a guy who lived very far away who basically used me as a fwb because although he made his intentions clear, he treated me like a real girlfriend.
i even met and was close to his entire family.
but just before I graduated from school he told me he had met somebody online playing a video game a week ago and now they were officially dating.
i have no idea if they actually met up in person. But it broke me.
he claimed it was the distance between us, I offered to move. He seemed disinterested.
i spent hundreds to see him per trip - bc ferries lol.
and hours of traveling. Completely dotted on him.
so I understandably am very guarded now.
Also because I feel I am always the inbetween girl.
never the girl.
the guy I am talking about could be super disrespectful. But changed his ways when he knew how bad he treated me and how it hurt me.
but before we met up he made a sex joke. I told him I was disinterested in sex at that time because I don’t want to be his fwb.
i said maybe I should even stay home.
he talked about other stuff.
i said he really needed to figure his shit out before I came over and he said “bitch, you have to ask if you want to come over, and you don’t tell me shit”
i immediatly saw red red and said fuck buddy it was tha, and than blocked him.
after many hours I realized knowing his stupidness it may have been one of his awful jokes he makes in person that are not at all serious so I unblocked his cell phone so I wouldn’t have to see if he ignored me. Stupid right.
and apologized and said I realize now he may have been joking but it hurt me, and I know I am totally broken from the last semi non relationship I had and have many issues, and said that I loved him.
i never heard back.
and I’ve been crying ever since.
partly because I really miss him, and partly because regarldsss if it was a joke or not. That was completely uncalled for, rude and super aggressive.
joke or not that made me feel like a disposable hooker.
hes a ex addict and now a sex addict and never had a serious relationship.
He’s immature but not a bad guy just a unintentional jerk. Though sometimes I can see it being intentional.
but I just need someone else’s opinion.
he does try to please me.
but that really hurt me
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