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I am just writing here to get it out. I am very hurt amd confused. I lost my wife 2 years ago the first year after her passing i didnt want to date anyone. A year ago i met a girl at work. I started to like her and tried to get to know her. She was very nice, but did not want to date a coworker.
She would text me at times, she would stop me and talk for hours. I knew she liked me. Anyway she started to text me daily. Pics of her family her daily routine. I asked to take her out for her birthday. She agreed. I picked her up at 830pm and didnt drop her off until 5am. She was very into me. We kissed for hours, the chemistry was off the charts.
This lasted a couple days. One day i left a gift for her at work for Valentine's day. I wanted to surprise her at work, because she said it had been 10 years since receiving a Valentine's gift. I sent it from a friend so coworkers would not know. After i sent this gift at first she was so happy and more into me. She texted me that night that she wished i was there with her.
The next day she sent a text that it is not a good idea to mix personal and bussiness, i was shocked. At first i said " if thats what you want, yes i am disappointed but i hope we can still be friends" she said " of course" well after thinking about it a couple hours i texted and asked why. She never repiled.
The following night she texted that her grandma hurt herself. I told her i would pray for her family. The day after that i texted after work and asked if she was ok. This is where i think i messed up. She didnt reply. 2 hours later i asked if she was purposely ignoring me. No reply. 3 hours after before bed i sent a text out of anger. I basically said i would keep our relationship a secret at work but people should know how fake she was. Basicly leading me on saying things like she has never felt a connection ever in her life like ours, the trust wr had with each other then just ignore me.
She did text back in the middle of the night that she was upset over her grandma, and that she wad not fake just honest she cany date a coworker.
i texted her like 5 6 times, again i know this was wrong. She never replied and think may have blocked me. My thing was we already dated as coworkers for a month it was great and nobdoy had to know, it is not a rule at our work.
i waited days then sent and apology text for the spam texting and wished her well. No reply, again i think i was already blocked at this point. So after 2 weeks to the day another coworker that likes me found out gave this girl i like flack amd embarrassed her over the gift. So i wrote the girl ij like an email saying i know what scared you and i feel our friendship is worth a co conversation all of our great Times and chemistry and talks is worth talking this out.
That was sent yesterday to her work email. I never got a reply, again i feel i am already blocked.
I walked right by her at work today her friends said hi to me were all smiles i said hello and smiled to all of them. She was buried in her phone, she breifly looked up to smile a bit and say hi as we walked by eachother.
I know i stupid and dont understand relationships. I just cant believe she felt nothing for me. 2 weeks ago she texted me heart kisses and we talked till 4 and 5 am multiple times a week. One night i text her to much out of hurt and i am blocked forever.
thanks for listening. This is in the lords hands now. I know god will fix this in his time or bring me somone better. For now i hurt but i have faith.
She would text me at times, she would stop me and talk for hours. I knew she liked me. Anyway she started to text me daily. Pics of her family her daily routine. I asked to take her out for her birthday. She agreed. I picked her up at 830pm and didnt drop her off until 5am. She was very into me. We kissed for hours, the chemistry was off the charts.
This lasted a couple days. One day i left a gift for her at work for Valentine's day. I wanted to surprise her at work, because she said it had been 10 years since receiving a Valentine's gift. I sent it from a friend so coworkers would not know. After i sent this gift at first she was so happy and more into me. She texted me that night that she wished i was there with her.
The next day she sent a text that it is not a good idea to mix personal and bussiness, i was shocked. At first i said " if thats what you want, yes i am disappointed but i hope we can still be friends" she said " of course" well after thinking about it a couple hours i texted and asked why. She never repiled.
The following night she texted that her grandma hurt herself. I told her i would pray for her family. The day after that i texted after work and asked if she was ok. This is where i think i messed up. She didnt reply. 2 hours later i asked if she was purposely ignoring me. No reply. 3 hours after before bed i sent a text out of anger. I basically said i would keep our relationship a secret at work but people should know how fake she was. Basicly leading me on saying things like she has never felt a connection ever in her life like ours, the trust wr had with each other then just ignore me.
She did text back in the middle of the night that she was upset over her grandma, and that she wad not fake just honest she cany date a coworker.
i texted her like 5 6 times, again i know this was wrong. She never replied and think may have blocked me. My thing was we already dated as coworkers for a month it was great and nobdoy had to know, it is not a rule at our work.
i waited days then sent and apology text for the spam texting and wished her well. No reply, again i think i was already blocked at this point. So after 2 weeks to the day another coworker that likes me found out gave this girl i like flack amd embarrassed her over the gift. So i wrote the girl ij like an email saying i know what scared you and i feel our friendship is worth a co conversation all of our great Times and chemistry and talks is worth talking this out.
That was sent yesterday to her work email. I never got a reply, again i feel i am already blocked.
I walked right by her at work today her friends said hi to me were all smiles i said hello and smiled to all of them. She was buried in her phone, she breifly looked up to smile a bit and say hi as we walked by eachother.
I know i stupid and dont understand relationships. I just cant believe she felt nothing for me. 2 weeks ago she texted me heart kisses and we talked till 4 and 5 am multiple times a week. One night i text her to much out of hurt and i am blocked forever.
thanks for listening. This is in the lords hands now. I know god will fix this in his time or bring me somone better. For now i hurt but i have faith.
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