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Hi all, I just wanted to see what people think about this.. My (now ex) partner was engaging in multiple online relationships, including sexting, sending nudes etc., during our relationship. It seemed he was actually in another relationship with one of the women, but online. I left when I found out and would never go back, but I can't reduce the anxiety symptoms I'm experiencing. I did suspect something but was constantly gaslighted. I participated in sexual acts, I wouldn't have done outside of a committed monogamous relationship, which I was CONSTANTLY assured I was in. It's such a grey area. I am a survivor of childhood sexual abuse, and it does take me a long time to trust someone - he knew about this, and how it was a big step for me. I just feel absolutely awful, and can't seem to get over it. I wake up in sweats, and have flashbacks to having sex with him, which leaves me feeling panicky and sick. He knew what he was doing. Obviously, cheating is not a chargeable offence, but there just seems something really gross about this. My consent was given with the trust of a committed relationship. It seems related to some kind of kick around the power dynamic. I'd really appreciate any thoughts - thank you
