First I am married, but decided my marriage is over about a year ago, however due to financial restrictions cannot file for divorce until jan 1, which I will do. I met a young lady about 8 years ago, and thought she was cute but quite immature, she is 10 yrs my junior and nothing ever came about and I wouldn't even have called her a friend. Fast forward to last June. I was transferred locations and once again was working with this young lady. I had heard some things about her that kinda made me look down on her. Me being kind of a prick went to poke at her situation one day, but after hearing her side of the story ended up giving her a hug and comforting her. She has 2 kids from 2 men, the second one was the situation I was going to make fun of her about, was a married man who convinced her he was in love with her and broke her heart. He then proceeded to leave her when she was 8 months pregnant and has never given her any assistance or even seen the child they have together. Though he still calls her feeding her stories about how he wants to be with her, but can't leave his wife and kids. She had plans before we were reintroduced to each other to move in with her first child's dad which she did in October.
Me being not the greatest at talking to woman took about 3 months to ask her for her number, which I did in late august of.r so. I texted her that same night and we have been talking every since. Through our friendship I have developed feelings for her that I have never felt before. We have shared our personal demons with each other, so there is not a whole lot that either of us have not talked about. We have been intimate several times and they have been great. I go out of my way to make her smile. She has actually helped me change who I am, by helping me realize that I was only a prick because I wasn't happy with myself and I feel much better about myself now. I asked her favorite perfume one day and bought her some as a small surprise for her, she was shocked and told me that she had never really gotten anything from any of the men she had had in her life. Since then I have kinda spoiled her some lol, she has never asked for anything I just urge her to tell me things she likes and then sometimes get them for her. Then one day out of the blue she sends me a picture of an engagement ring. So I asked a couple of female friends I have what they would mean by it if they had sent it. They all agreed so the next day I went and put it in layaway.
I have told her exactly how I feel and she played it off. We have talked about being together and she will always say something like, but with our situations it won't ever happen. She has told me that we are only friends a couple of times, but then we will go out and you can tell she has feelings, but won't reveal them. She is an open book to me on everything but what her feelings for me actually are. I think she is afraid that I am playing her like the last guy did, as he said he would leave his wife to be with her and all. I know she isn't using me for stuff as she doesn't ask for anything and sometimes asks me to stop getting her things. I think she is afraid I will hurt her, which would never happen
i am so confused. Let me know what you think
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Me being not the greatest at talking to woman took about 3 months to ask her for her number, which I did in late august of.r so. I texted her that same night and we have been talking every since. Through our friendship I have developed feelings for her that I have never felt before. We have shared our personal demons with each other, so there is not a whole lot that either of us have not talked about. We have been intimate several times and they have been great. I go out of my way to make her smile. She has actually helped me change who I am, by helping me realize that I was only a prick because I wasn't happy with myself and I feel much better about myself now. I asked her favorite perfume one day and bought her some as a small surprise for her, she was shocked and told me that she had never really gotten anything from any of the men she had had in her life. Since then I have kinda spoiled her some lol, she has never asked for anything I just urge her to tell me things she likes and then sometimes get them for her. Then one day out of the blue she sends me a picture of an engagement ring. So I asked a couple of female friends I have what they would mean by it if they had sent it. They all agreed so the next day I went and put it in layaway.
I have told her exactly how I feel and she played it off. We have talked about being together and she will always say something like, but with our situations it won't ever happen. She has told me that we are only friends a couple of times, but then we will go out and you can tell she has feelings, but won't reveal them. She is an open book to me on everything but what her feelings for me actually are. I think she is afraid that I am playing her like the last guy did, as he said he would leave his wife to be with her and all. I know she isn't using me for stuff as she doesn't ask for anything and sometimes asks me to stop getting her things. I think she is afraid I will hurt her, which would never happen
i am so confused. Let me know what you think
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