Hello. My name is Brandon. Me and my ex-girlfriend sadly have been broken up for about a month and a half.
We broke up because I was at my senior year in high school. I had a bunch of things to do and without realizing it I was growing more distant from my love. She even tried explaining that she was in a "bad place". And I tried to help but it seemed like nothing I was doing was solving anything. I would ask her what I needed to do to help and she would say she didn't know and I would be stuck to figure it out. With this along with all my senior priorities I just lost track of everything. About a month later she admitted to going out to the movies with a guy that she had mixed feelings for. I was so shocked I just ended it without even asking for an explanation. Later that night I broke a promise to her. One that I've broken before. The next day I decided that we should work this out. That we should fix this. And she agreed. I started by confessing what I did and then she told me that she couldn't. That she couldn't work this out with me. I didn't understand because we both made mistakes and I thought she would be understanding of that.
After a long push and pull of talking she finally said that she would need time to think about it. And I agreed.
She went to Cali The same day to see her dad so she was gone for two weeks. In that time we didn't really talk. It was off and on. She didn't tell me where she was going or what she was doing or anything and it hurt because she used to. She used to tell me everything. When we talked she seemed distant and would respond to me in short text. Then she came home and I wanted to see her. She kept saying maybe. She was always "out" and had "plans". Which just frustrated me cause I didn't know. She mentioned a friend that I haven't heard of. And she still wouldn't text me for days. Eventually about a week later we did see each other and it was great. We talked and laughed and she said she missed me and loved me. She hugged me really long like we used to do and kissed me on the cheek. I thought this was a turn around. But really it was more confusing. She didn't text me the next day and still acted like she wasn't interested. About a week after that we went to this event together with her friend. The parts when we were alone was good but other than that I was frustrated cause she didn't act the way she did when we saw each other the week before. I couldn't touch her like I thought I could (hand holding, shoulder holding, hip holding, etc.). But at the end when we went to her car she hugged me and kissed me on the cheek like last time (????)
The last time we saw each other was two weeks ago when she came to the school to pick up her books that she left. I walked her to the car and that time she didn't go for a hug. Keep in mind we still didnt talk that much either.
And now back to the present. I had a friend help me out and I found out that she does know I've been trying. I have been patient. I've never went off on her. I've kept most of my feelings too myself. About my pain and my heart break and what I think for a moment was depression. I've made her a mixtape (I've done it before so it wasn't that big a deal). I have been so understanding.
But now she tells me that she doesn't know and that she doesn't think she can handle getting back together. She says that we could maybe someday try again, but she wants to focus on herself for now.
I've been reading upon this and it says that we need to communicate and talk to each other. How can I do this if she shut me out?
How can I show her I've changed and that I'm willing to make this strong again if she doesn't even talk to me that much and is iffy about seeing seeing me?
and it's crazy because she says she still loves me. And I am leaving to college in a week. And I just don't know how to do this.
I really do love her and I want this to work. I want us to work this out and fix things. I already have enough information from her to know that she's considering it. But is not talking to her about this a good choice? How can I communicate if she is not talking to me?
I don't want to seem over bearing or desperate. Because I'm not.
I just want to know how can I show her that i really love her and want to be better? How can I communicate with little to no communication at all?
What do I need to do?
We broke up because I was at my senior year in high school. I had a bunch of things to do and without realizing it I was growing more distant from my love. She even tried explaining that she was in a "bad place". And I tried to help but it seemed like nothing I was doing was solving anything. I would ask her what I needed to do to help and she would say she didn't know and I would be stuck to figure it out. With this along with all my senior priorities I just lost track of everything. About a month later she admitted to going out to the movies with a guy that she had mixed feelings for. I was so shocked I just ended it without even asking for an explanation. Later that night I broke a promise to her. One that I've broken before. The next day I decided that we should work this out. That we should fix this. And she agreed. I started by confessing what I did and then she told me that she couldn't. That she couldn't work this out with me. I didn't understand because we both made mistakes and I thought she would be understanding of that.
After a long push and pull of talking she finally said that she would need time to think about it. And I agreed.
She went to Cali The same day to see her dad so she was gone for two weeks. In that time we didn't really talk. It was off and on. She didn't tell me where she was going or what she was doing or anything and it hurt because she used to. She used to tell me everything. When we talked she seemed distant and would respond to me in short text. Then she came home and I wanted to see her. She kept saying maybe. She was always "out" and had "plans". Which just frustrated me cause I didn't know. She mentioned a friend that I haven't heard of. And she still wouldn't text me for days. Eventually about a week later we did see each other and it was great. We talked and laughed and she said she missed me and loved me. She hugged me really long like we used to do and kissed me on the cheek. I thought this was a turn around. But really it was more confusing. She didn't text me the next day and still acted like she wasn't interested. About a week after that we went to this event together with her friend. The parts when we were alone was good but other than that I was frustrated cause she didn't act the way she did when we saw each other the week before. I couldn't touch her like I thought I could (hand holding, shoulder holding, hip holding, etc.). But at the end when we went to her car she hugged me and kissed me on the cheek like last time (????)
The last time we saw each other was two weeks ago when she came to the school to pick up her books that she left. I walked her to the car and that time she didn't go for a hug. Keep in mind we still didnt talk that much either.
And now back to the present. I had a friend help me out and I found out that she does know I've been trying. I have been patient. I've never went off on her. I've kept most of my feelings too myself. About my pain and my heart break and what I think for a moment was depression. I've made her a mixtape (I've done it before so it wasn't that big a deal). I have been so understanding.
But now she tells me that she doesn't know and that she doesn't think she can handle getting back together. She says that we could maybe someday try again, but she wants to focus on herself for now.
I've been reading upon this and it says that we need to communicate and talk to each other. How can I do this if she shut me out?
How can I show her I've changed and that I'm willing to make this strong again if she doesn't even talk to me that much and is iffy about seeing seeing me?
and it's crazy because she says she still loves me. And I am leaving to college in a week. And I just don't know how to do this.
I really do love her and I want this to work. I want us to work this out and fix things. I already have enough information from her to know that she's considering it. But is not talking to her about this a good choice? How can I communicate if she is not talking to me?
I don't want to seem over bearing or desperate. Because I'm not.
I just want to know how can I show her that i really love her and want to be better? How can I communicate with little to no communication at all?
What do I need to do?
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